Ill
Give up day dreams for reality
Prepare for eternity
One foot in the grave
Distractin’ me
How can they live like that
When they talk like this
Your highs bring new meanings to my lows
When I fight with you, I’m trying to fight all my foes
But you’re not the one I want to fight
You’re not the cancer that sits inside
You’re not the who’s pissing brown
Sluggish and weak, I fight my frown
My biggest enemy sits above my heart
Is it me? Yes, it’s me. Where do I even start?
If I could leave this body and float away
I wouldn’t hesitate, no way, I’m not afraid
How to explain this life I’m surviving?
Every day’s a battle I don’t want to be alive in
Plug my body straight into a machine
Wake me up—nah, just leave me asleep
If life gets better than the one I can imagine
Then I’ll come back and show you my passion
But now I feel dragged down, beat around
I don’t even want to finish this song... I’m done
It’s nap time, son.
Thank you Lord that I have something to look forward to after this
Copyright © 2020 by Matt Antis. Originally published in Poet’s Guild’s Poem-A-Day on December 23, 2020, by Ink Jot Kingdom.
